Thursday, January 17, 2019
My beautiful sweet friend, you have been gone for almost a year. You’ve been my best friend for 24 years. I so miss our almost daily conversations before you fell ill. I’m so very glad you were able to come visit me on the golf coast as I have all those photos on my Facebook for everyone to see. How odd I was in Jacksonville the same time you were in the hospital. I got to lay in bed with you, feel my arms around you as yours around mine as only best friends can do. You have always been an incredible friend. You are a huge part of my family. You helped me greatly when my son died almost 2 years ago. I do not understand how I have made it this past almost 2 years without my son and now, you. How am I supposed to be without you? I love you so much. I’ve tried to keep in contact with your family but they will not talk to me. There’s been so much loss, I am guessing, talking to me remind them of you? What an incredible mother you have along with your niece and her children. You could be such an incredibly loving, giving person. You and I spent many thanksgivings. Helping to feed the homeless along with taking my son with us. All the money we put towards buying bikes for other children at Christmas time which my husband still does not know I did - . You made life not only bearable yet grand and beautiful. I miss you so much, words cannot express. We had plans if you remember but I am left here alone without you now. I cry for you, I cry for my lost son and I pray you are with him and Lori. Please send me a sign, you promised me. You’ve left a huge imprint on my life along with many others. How I miss you and how deeply we all love you, still. Until I meet you on the other side of the veil my beautiful friend, please watch over your family and mine. I know you are now strong enough to do so, along with all your other many friends. You had so many people that loved you, still do. until then, I will think about you every day and look for your signs as we discussed this many times. In my life, three huge stars are no longer shining in the sky, my father, my son and you my sweet friend. I love and miss you Profusely.
